Diana Rivers, and her husband Bill have been dear friends of mine for over half my life. After a long illness, Diana passed away July 31, 2021. My husband, Gary passed away not a year before, October 10, 2020.
With the death of our beloved spouses, Bill and I became members of a club neither one of us ever sought, or hoped to join - The Surviving Spouse club. Left lonely, sad, heavy hearted; having to accept, learning to adapt to that strange feeling of not having our lover, our partner, our soulmate near. The one who was so much a part of us, in the very sinew of our being. Whether death of a loved one comes suddenly, or lingers on, the shock, the sorrow, the sadness is the same. The grieving process is just that , a process to be worked through. Memories held dear wrap around us like a comforter while sitting in a favorite chair as we long to touch the hand, the face, embrace our loved one no longer here.
In an expression of grief, Bill wrote, and asked me to share his lament, It Wasn’t Suppose to End Like This. I do so now. …..
It wasn't suppose to end like this....I began dreaming, praying and meditating about how Diana and my journey together would end when we were first diagnosed with PSP 14 years ago and told we had but a few short years left. I could never believe that we would not be sitting on a perfect crescent shaped, sandy beach at Napili Bay on Maui, in our late eighties/early nineties, Mai Tai's in hand, laughing about all the crazy and wonderful adventures we had while watching the sun sink into the ocean between Lanai and Moloka'i, a 40 foot sloop disappearing around the point and us slipping away from one paradise to another, holding hands. This is how I always dreamed it would beIt wasn't suppose to end like this.
Rest In Peace dear Diana, eternal light shine upon you +
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