Gentle on My Mind

May 2. Nighttime. The day is over.  It was my and Gary’s Wedding Anniversary today.  Our first anniversary without him being here.  I woke early. Laying in bed alone, missing my mate; I spoke aloud, hoping he could hear, Happy Anniversary, Gary Dobbs.  My heart ached to hold him near. 

I posted pictures from our Wedding on FaceBook . 

Mass was celebrated in memory of Gary this morn. I listened to the Gospel readings, and Father Jeff’s Homily about the Holy Family; Jesus, Mary and Joseph,  and how our Lord hears and answers our prayer. I closed my eyes and prayed I would know Gary’s presence this day in a special way. Even envisioning I would see my beloved , hear the sound of his voice when I returned home .   Instead, it was dear friend, Jeanne calling. She asked if I would like to join her and Ella for a special event at Rivaura Winery this afternoon, and said she thought that’s what Gary would want me to do, be with friends , not sit home alone.  Already teary eyed , I cried some more , but responded that I’d like to do that. 

                                                                                 

 

And it was a beautiful, peaceful, happy day. Rivaura Vineyard and Winery with its spectacular  Idaho views overlooking the Clearwater River; and jutted, shaded escarpments reaching into the blue of the sky . Friend Glenda, and her husband joined us . Musicians softly playing their instruments, and the sweet fellowship of friendship  filled the afternoon. 

It’s only now I’m realizing I did know my husbands presence today, it was in every moment and movement. Beginning with Mass this morn, in Jeanne’s invitation , the camaraderie with friends. The beauty of the place. Gary was gentle on my mind, in my heart. My friends and I clinked our glasses together,  a toast to him, and me; Happy Anniversary! It was just the kind of day, my Gary would enjoy. 

                                                                                     

                                                                           

***  Rivaura Estate Vineyards and Winery is located near Juliaetta, Idaho.  If you like good wine, beautiful scenery and a charming, rural atmosphere, be sure to add Rivaura to your ‘go to’ list.  Rivaura is family owned and operated. Their web site:  rivaura.com