May 2. Our Wedding Anniversary

 You seem to be doing well they say. Accepting. Adapting. Getting along since he’s been gone. How long has it been now? A year and a half?

 I smile. But inside, I cringe and sigh. And think of  the tears I shed alone. Feeling lost.  Still trying to find myself without the one I loved so intimately. The feel, and smell of him. The touch of his skin next to mine. The sound of his voice asking, Have I told you today that I love you? Or Would you marry me all over again ? And how we would say to one another, always kiss before you say goodbye.   How I was his Kathleen, and he my Gary Gene. 

                                                   

Today, May 2 is our wedding anniversary. I reflect on our many years together. All that we lived, and shared, and how good it was - building a business, making a home, raising a family. Sharing disappointments, and dreams fulfilled. Laughter and tears. Playing together, praying together, growing together;  we were lovers, and the closest of friends. Early on in our marriage, Gary’s dad said to me, I’m glad you’re in Gary’s life. You help calm him. In truth, we helped calm each other, and boost one another. We were very much in sync. Comfortable, and happy together in living the routine of our married life. An observer might say, seems rather ordinary.  I’d smile, and tell them no, not ordinary at all, but most extraordinary, and lovely the life my husband and I shared together.  After all, isn’t it the ordinary of shared life together day after day, night after night, year after year that blossoms into the extraordinary? The blending of two hearts into one, and soulmates eternal?  So Gary Dobbs, if you’re asking now somewhere from your heavenly perch, would I marry you again? You already know the answer my dearest darling, in a heartbeat. Again, and again. 

Happy Anniversary to us, Gary Gene ♥️

 I love you forever and always, your Kathleen